As I move farther away from college and into the real world, my relationship status brings me more attention than I am comfortable with. Sure, I’m thrilled to be engaged to Tex! But all of a sudden, in the shift from girlfriend to fiancee, I am now an object of attention and envy. If people aren’t asking what my wedding colors will be or where my engagement ring* is, I’m being told that I can’t have an opinion on the joys and pitfalls of dating since I’ve been boo’d up since I was in diapers**.
Shoot, it’s not like I’m one of those girls who spends all her time gleefully saying “You know, my fiance…” all the time. I only talk about weddings when someone else brings it up. Basically, I do my very best not to portray myself as being one of the “smug (to-be) marrieds” that everyone hates. I think all the ladies I hang out with are smart, pretty and fabulous and I wonder myself why I get to be happily engaged and some of them are having trouble finding a boyfriend, or even a date, period! If I could conjure up the perfect man for each of them right now, I’d do it without hesitation.
However, I know that everyone gets things at a different time in their lives, and everyone has different blessings. However, we all have love in our lives that we shouldn’t take for granted. Sometimes I look at my Facebook newsfeed and see picture upon picture of people I know with their other friends, smiling for the camera, cutting the fool and generally looking like they’re having a blast. I wish I had a big group of girlfriends I could call up to come over so we could do each other’s hair and makeup and go to a lounge and be fly. But I don’t. I have 3 or 4 girls I consider myself close to, only 2 of whom I actually see on a regular basis, much less go out with. But I do have the aforementioned fiance, a sister and brother who are pretty damn cool, and parents that love me (sometimes a little too much). So despite my occasional flashes of envy, I have a lot of love in my life. And you do too!
